C,G,Am,D….I feel Alive!

Ah! It felt like something long gone or forgotten. Damn it! It felt that it was too good to be actually taking place. I felt alive when i played that damn G and then changed it to the C! Thats the guitar chords for “Wish you Were Here” you waste! I was bloody smiling man…u heard that? I was smiling for something I did!

Take that! Well after all I guess life is not as boring as it seems it is….

Just Wanna Get Outta this Mess..

Ok..I have no idea what i am doing right now as i am quite high on beer that i had an hour back. Just that i want to tell my entire life history to anyone who will ask for it and screw that bastard who has been using me as a scapegoat for all the moronic political reasons that he has been involved with… Screw him real bad…And all hail my Department for sticking with me through all this shit that i have to go through for telling some hard facts. Yeah i hope that bastard rots in hell and his life is just the epitome of all that is bad with this whole damn world. Like i said, i have no idea what the hell i am typing. For all You know i might be taken action against for typing like this. But as always, i dont take up names. SO SCREW YOU, YOU WASTAGE! GO CHOP URSELF OFF UR MANHOOD!

And after all this i will abide by whatever the people who stood by me say at any point of time…

And GOD only help the fact that i am still alone and still experiencing all those vicarious feelings…Right now i am listening to “Waiting for a Girl Like You” by Foreigner….Yeah right! LIke i have a girl in the first place! Now it so happens that i have not been able to get any girl for so long now, that my girl friend (note the change in spelling) since 16 years went to the extent of actually asking me to consider the possibility that i might be…..you know….i guess you understand.Next i will be listening to “Scarborough Fair” by Simon and Garfunkel and i know of whom i will be reminded of then… Its just the fact that all of them were in the past tense and not now which is the only thing that counts..Atleast thats what that book ( something called -The Present) said. Whatever..fact is that i dont have someone whom i can call in the middle of the night and who will talk to me even if they have some dumb internals the next day, someone who will make time for me rather than think which is more important.

Balls to all those people who have disappointed me all these years.
And if u have been really offended, then i suggest u go commit suicide. And now i am listening to “Why does my Heart feel so Bad?” by MOBY. It is a real good song and i listen to it everytime i feel bad. Now i am high and i really feel screwed up….by that bastard and some of my classmates. So screw u too…
You see i am drunk and so i am telling the truth. SCREW U TOO!

God help all those who read this and dont understand what i am going through for the past 2-3 days. I guess i just gotta wait till this whole thing fades away. TIME is the healer TIME moves on…just gotta wait…
Whatever man….
I just wanna get some good university in the US and get what i want to study.
I dont know if i will land in trouble for typing this and making this public. But for all u people who didnt know what exactly had happened, all i have to say is that i have been made a scapegoat and nothing else….SO i suggest u frame ur opinion.
Again man, whatever man. I am quite high..I was not this high at the bar… Thought i had wasted all the 120 bucks that i spent on booze…
But this blog makes me feel better.
After a long time i am writing a blog and i end up writing this. So i guess its someting that is different from my usual routine. I just wanna get myself out of this mess. Oh ya and i ended up telling my Mom that it was because of her that i suffered in my childhood. ONe more fact that was. So no regrets about that.
Again again, Whatever….I just wanna get out of this mess…
JUST WANNA GET OUTTA THIS MESS……
GOD HELP ME…

Been Busy….actually!

Ya…Thats right! I have actually been busy and i am not free now either. I have my last damn exam tomorrow and i believe that it is morally not right to blog in a situation like this. Thats why this blog ends here. PS: I will be back soon. Real soon…