I officially give up. I realized that its just not going to happen. Irrespective of what I do and what I can’t do, nothing is going to change. It is sinking in. And I now have come to actually believe its never going to happen. I just hope that I don’t drown myself in Self Pity. I need some distraction to keep steady. Its just not going to happen.
God I need a drink.
God Damn It!